Keelie Comma

When you told me, I went back to bed, back to sleep and the elusive reality patiently awaited my full attention. When I took my morning shower, I reviewed the to-do list in my head and thought about the taste of coffee. Every once in a while, that day, what you told me would creep back in my head and remind me that things are often new. But, my day continued.

After lunch, I sat back at my desk and what you told me returned to my mind, and this time it stuck. I got up from my desk and walked downstairs, I lay down on the couch and watched my hands tremble.

I know all the reasons my hand trembled. I know that what you told me means I am no longer young. I know that what you told me means we are no longer two. I know that what you told means everything will be different from now on. I know that the world has transformed. I know why my hands tremble.

The trembling passed thought, and the reality of what you told sunk deeper... deeper than my hands. The reality sank into my heart. I thought about baseball games and small cries in the night. I thought about the smiles of a tiny person illuminating our home and our lives.

I thought about extension, my love. I thought about all that these three years have meant to me. I thought of how wonderful and beautiful this has all been. I realized that now, we have given all of that to the world.

Keelie, when we leave this world behind, we will leave our unity and communion behind as well in the form of our child.

What you told me has filled me with so much joy.